Hysterical Fillings

I’ve always had an irrational fear of the dentist; the kind of fear that makes your heart feel as if it’s going to leap out of your chest at any second. Tears running down your face at the mention of the word ‘dentist’ kind of fear. Like a petrified tree; I could not move, nor could I stand to take myself to get my teeth fixed. Recently I’ve had to be knocked out to do my fillings; even then, I did not take myself. Yesterday I chipped a filling… My heart began to race, and I began to think of an escape route. What if I just ignore it? After all it only hurts a little. I even contemplated fixing it myself, because it would be cheaper that way. Money is drying up, and I cannot afford to go without sedation. I kept trying to drink with no avail. My tooth couldn’t handle anything cold. That’s when I made my decision that however scared I was, I couldn’t let it get any worse. I reluctantly picked up the phone, and dialed the number of my dentist. A friendly, yet sympathetic voice answered, and as I spoke, her voice became softer. She wanted me to get the tooth fixed, but knew how much I disliked the dentist. I had to make one of the most difficult decisions of my life… To wait and get sedated, or to try without sedation for the first time in my adult life. Finally, after my hesitation I made my appointment, but that didn’t mean I was over my fear. That night I barely fell asleep now that I think of it; I only got four hours of sleep.  When I woke up the feeling of dread hit me, but I pulled through. I put my keys in my hand, and prepared for a 45-minute drive to my demise. I got there in one piece, but my heart-rate was speeding faster than my truck on the highway. They got me in quick, and my first thought was, “Great this is where I’ll die.” Morbid. I know. I chose to be put on laughing gas, and put on my brave face. They saw my problem in under 5 minutes, but waited patiently until I was calm enough to work on. That’s when they told me the good news; I came soon enough that there was no decay, and they were able to fill it again without numbing. All fear went away. Soon enough the dentist came in, and took a look at my mouth. He calmingly told me what he was doing as he was doing it. I was back home within two hours, and the best part was I didn’t have to pay a dime. Because I didn’t have sedation, which was $300.00, they covered my bill. The worst part about my experience was my anxiety. I overcame, and drove forward.

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